Its defeatist here deleting that persona for its not for me to wallow where i was cause now i'm getting better all the time to paint a picture, a diptych of me in my prime, because Im told if I can see it I can seize it. Yea I just don't believe it I did but now it don't make any sense to me how every kid could come fit with a calling. the counselor keeps stalling when I ask about my aptitude tests. I don't know what i' m doing but i'm doing it my best. If it doesn't work for you move on to something finer. we all tell ya what to do, but I can only speak my mine What i mean to say is that the meaning isn't real. the's a was when yours is now how you can stand for what you feel. thoughts convening on the real chance that this zeal could last awhile. if you plan to put your honest self above a model smile. yeah you might not receive it but really was needed to knead out a life for yourself somehow I doubt more and more of us can leave it we don't see why we waited for our future muse we get to choose We all are the chosen one I was born to save creation. Just like my grandfathers son. I will fit into my station

Listen up cutie you need to understand that i'll never be your second in command. Id be your ride or die but I wont die by your hand. you do me dirty so I now demand that you stay out of my inbox. in and out like a bandit. you take my feelings freely. Im up discussing your woes so it goes candidly. don't really know if that went down cause know i'm feeling ghosted. all the sweet things you posted remind me that you did want to get close I don't know what were doing anymore. It was clear before but now its staid. Do we have anything left today. or did it leave you gone nevermore .Am I being to reactionary. have you told me what you think. In so many ways I think what we had wasn't much to display. It was live and now it fades You know Im not just some emotional rag man. I don't exist to just soak up your tears. And I get you know you've got some stuff to work on and you may not be sure what you want right now. But does that mean you just disappear whenever you feel like. Im just looking for some reciprocity here I mean are we even friends now? If you don't like me anymore then say so You know I wouldn't be here if I didn't feel for you. And you said you felt the same way so baby what is new? I'd tell you what i'm up too but you don't care when I do. at least that how it seems. i'm busting at the seams. trying adjust but i'm just not sure bout where we stand. No i'm not trying to Stan wont be no second banana we co fruits or we ain't gone do this beckon if you wanna. your so cute but i'm not pursuing if you want to keep on playin games

I shuffle to the left and shuffle to the right. Im liable to tumble don't let me out your sight. my little marionette is a messy one. he aims to please or rather sleep on seems homespun. He takes it day to day when he can. reason rarely paves his way cause that takes a steady hand. often handling the hex like he planned it. Its nobodies choice. the puppet demands his own voice on strings i dance dance, To my own drum i fly i prickle. When I perform its a glorious thing, Every time its a new song I sing. when I change hands they are always mine. the mind separates from the whole I am under my own control. The masters fickle he holds the reigns but knows very little A dizzying array of egos go for broke. everyday that I wake its a different fucker woke. Tried to come up but the company you keep can cancel that . dopamine don't got your back. you meant to but know your'e lacking in the energy department. restart up what you started. you ain't got strings if you can see your agencies regarded. that metaphors for targets. don't tarnish your whole heart kid. hold on to all your best and you can seize all you invested Yeah you got it you got a dream way up there on the tv screen. your gonna need more than just belief. to fulfill it one day I will do my exercise, and i will eat my fruits and vegetables. You'll hear me now when I say i'm doing what I know to pursue the path i'm going.

It was nature, or nurture, that damn dirty burglar, is at it again. she stole my attention. adventurer, lurker, I scramble to know her, now and then, I hold her adoration within When I met you it you wrote my memoir. I new our adventures would never end. Now i'm spending quality time. Now i'm spending quality time we could've taken Babylon it wasn't your bag the flag is still drawn Creator, Destroyer, I aim to enjoy her, company Its always been a pleasant aside. table salt, ground pepper, i will remember her, compliment, holidays where you stood by my side whenever you greet me when we do embrace you grind my gears right into place. Now i'm spending quality time. Now i'm spending quality time. I remember the zoo where you saw majesty and I believe i found it too. Now i'm spending quality time. Now i'm spending quality time

I remember when i first synthesized you.carried my chagrin like a bird on the wind. it fed me joy. it held me firm. you where my destroyer a germ. Leave me, Feed me, Deceit There was no cause for worry we where dancers. I could not know then but you will answer me now pawn. Answer to me on this day. You've had your way but i've changed. Oh I love it but I gotta stop. You never even made me happy. I run but never reach the top you only ever lived to distract me When I was lost you showed me something new loving you was so easy for me to do. but I'd rather seek than bleakly masquerade I erased you its the price i paid

This is the only realistic choice for us. i'm done hanging around, where i know i cant be found, guess i'm ready find more than a steady mind. but this habit cant be worse than the drama i tried to blind myself too. today I crave an old familiar kind of drug. And it grips just like a vice, hug me close to sacrifice. my time has come she's under my thumb i'm under prepared, I hope i don't shed the love we shared. For your sake and mine its best if we end this while were feeling high lest the ball and chain. Drag you from the sky and after 10 years you wonder why you ever loved me. As nice as it is, to trust it is truly a foolish action. were skating by on an old dream but does it belong to me. I guess i'll carry it out but as far as I can see. theres no end in sight none that Id gladly oversee. what choice is there but to desire for you and me

I remember that day very well, the ember burns In my head, It was the line in the sand where they hatched the spell. i've since been branded by a full body curse. incensed beings expanded and they show me they worst. I get to work busting lead in a handful of zombies. I give the clerk a smerk but she don't see the death i see. a ghost of my own he's always heavy handed. wont leave me alone now i'm standing in the stranger zone who's behind me who's behind me? And tell me what you come for. shadows drag along the floor/one look and I was done for. who's behind me who's behind me who? From this irrational view/I never saw ya come in. it was nothing. As I walk through the hexagram etched on the floor, howdy ya do hows your day.They don't ask anymore. As I tear down unbelieving heathens by the score. remember to keep breathin its only for a season. Dodging death is my feat as the manticore howls, heavy dread in my head but I don't throw the towel in.spit empowering praise cause i've seen this before. theres always some more but it phases i know whats in store

oh i cant believe it i'm really fucked this time. The china's on the edge and those dishes where on your dime. they hit ground now I found that my wishes where in vain. Ive stained my ledger hard. Hardly think you'll forgive me. me oh my I try to discard and rub off all your pain. i've caused the greatest bane. i've seen the lords disdain. but don't dare count me out i'm not about to lose easy. Ill make it up ten fold. then hold conscious easy I am the redeemer I made a mess. Ill make it new again uncertain he professes. I am the dreamer I feel the stress . best at what do but truly i am tested. this my last ditch effort i am empty in the dessert. sowing mayhem from sea to see if i can somehow subvert this. crisis on infinite earths. I'll make it all fine. Im giving up what its worth. so please show me a sign are you possessive? don't make it mine. no heart felt design could heal if its oppressive. Are you possessive? keep that in mind. if its so long after all thats fine.

I was confused did you use me? you left but I stayed just to watch the debris. just in case there was life left, bereft dejected. it all made sense to me in time. I told the story of your crime. It wasn't real this I know now. I took some time to swallow I can see it now. once its too late. I cant go back to before. erase what I created. what we tried to care for. I can see it now. Once its too late. pieces of our work on the floor. You wanted to delay it. I only wanted more and more when you finish yelling tell me whats changed, theres no use dwelling on those old days. theres no telling what could happen anyway, you could meet another stranger. or meet yourself again, and be friendlier this time, I needed to know what to mend, I could not see but I pretended.